Lea J. All rights reserved. Center for the Study of Child Care Employment Conducting research and proposing policy solutions aimed at improving how our nation prepares, supports, and rewards the early care and education workforce since Site Navigation. Search for:. Teacher Work Environments. Even so, I am dealing with a lot of guilt over letting people down. I never thought I would quit a teaching job mid-year. I am thankful to know I am not the only one who has been in this difficult place. It is a tough process to walk through, but I knew that for me it was the right choice, and would ultimately bring peace.
Hi Joanna, I feel this way too. I am actually home today because I have the flu, probably because of all the stress. Even taking today off meant leaving at am to leave handouts and work that my inner city students may try to do. I am curious as to what you stated as your reason for leaving. I want to resign but I would like to teach in some capacity in another district. Appreciate your help. I have just read the story of my life! Daily I suffer from shortness of breath, chest pains, and my arms go numb!
My retirement age has just been up 5 years because our fund managers made poor decision, yet we are the ones to suffer. Teaching is awful, I would quit today if I could. What I want to know is when are we going to make a stand and lay the blame where it belongs….. A mass exodus of teachers, maybe someone would listen! I keep saying this to all my coworkers!!!
I understand the situation totally. I took a job teaching in an urban middle school, starting a music program. The kids have no discipline, and they just laugh at the consequences. Sending them to the office is a joke. I have security remove them and then nothing happens. They use terrible language, fight with each other, and have called me every name in the book. This article has made me feel much better.
I can totally relate!!! I was asked to build a high school choir grades Every child acted awful!!! They would fight, yell obscenities, run around the room, rip up the music , groan when asked to sing, threaten me, and the administration did zero to help with establishing expectations in the classroom.
There were literally no consequences for insane behavior. Not to mention my classroom setting was completely unsafe, no PA system, no phone, only my laptop and cell phone — which rarely had reception due to the location of the classroom. Administration would ask kids what I said , the kid written up, and take their word as gospel and use it to attack me. I asked administration to visit my classroom without my knowledge or to record the class so that they could get an accurate view as to what was going on , but my requests were refused. I finally took medical leave toward the end of the year and do not anticipate going back.
My one regret is taking this job in the first place as I fear it will mar my chances of ever working again. Hindsight is better than foresight!! Thank you for this post. Fourteen years ago I was in that position in an urban first grade and made the difficult decision to quit. I spent a long time questioning my ability to teach, but was able to move on. Thank you for helping me make my decision. I plan on quitting this coming week and have already another job offer in a much better district..
One of my classes sounds similar to yours but with one difference I have a cote acer who is the special ed teacher in the r oom. I create lessons, teach, grade, and contact parents while she walks around screaming at students. My back is suffering and I had to see chiropractor to help me with pain.
Also the teachers in the rooms make comments about the room being messi and one of them does not give me any board space and if I post something up she takes it down. The other day I talked to her just to make friendly talk. She ignored me and asked me if I was ha b ING a conversation with myself and she had no clue what I was talking about.
Sometimes it is not the administration, the students, but also your colleagues. Sorry to hear your state. Thank you, thank you for the article you wrote. I left my position at an urban school at Christmas time last year. It was one of the most difficult choices I have ever made, and although I am still searching for a permanent position I know that it was the best thing for me.
It helps to know that others have been there and are now successful. Angela , thank you so much for writing this post and explaining what you went through. I really appreciate your honesty. Um , you should be ashamed of yourself, if you were a good teacher and in the profession for the right reasons you would have stayed knowing you were the only shot those kids had. I agree Zachary. Reading the post and replies makes me very worried for our most vulnerable students — classroom management and relationship building is part of the job. But I always wind up stressed out and sick mid-year.
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It is great that you are able to withstand the stress and challenges of your classrooms; your students and school are the better for it. However, it is not shameful if others are unable to persist in a similar environment. We all have our strengths, weaknesses, and limits. Rather than demean them, why not thank them for the contributions they made up to the point they could not take it any longer?
Responding to a calling, I became a teacher after a quarter century working in high-tech. I felt full of empathy, compassion, and drive as I made my way through ed school. Yet, once in the classroom, the enormity of the job cast a shadow over what until then was unabashed idealism, ever for a baby boomer.
As teachers, you should recognize this as truth, and empathize with your fellow teachers who suffer in their desire to serve, rather than belittle them. I hope you remain as strong-willed as you seem to be so that you may both continue serving those in need. Yet, if the day comes when you realize you have exceeded your threshold, I hope you recognize the irony in the moment as others thank you for your service, when they could bemoan why you were unable to endure.
The teachers job is to teach not to give out the discipline. When students make that job impossible teachers become the disciplinarian and wind up no longer teaching which is why they did the job in the first place. Why should she be ashamed? Being at a school like this could potentially destroy your life. It could result in a financially damaging lawsuit or even a media scandal if you are falsely accused of something.
It could result in serious, or even permanent, injury. It causes serious mental and emotional distress that can take years to get over. Certainly, I feel sorry for those kids, but one teacher quitting mid-year is no going to make or break their outcomes. Our schools and society needs bigger changes for these kids to have a shot. Wow, it must be nice for you to sit on your pedestal shame all of us below you.
But shaming people is uncalled for. Bad things happening to good teachers. I teach a first-grade class that is not quite as bad as the one you mentioned, but it is my second year with a tough class and an unsupportive administration. Even with an aide in the room, he refuses to stay in his seat. This is all documented and nothing new. My principal has continually blamed this behavior on me saying if I taught him expectations, he would not behave in that way , and does not understand that I can hardly keep the attention of the rest of the class or teach when I am constantly dealing with him.
I have a few other students who join in, which always makes it even crazier.
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I am so glad you wrote this. I quit teaching a junior high job in middle of second year. I had 5 different class preparations and was too overwhelmed creating lesson after lesson and having different levels first and second year students in language classes. I was also coaching and asked to take on mor ecoaching. I went on a medical leave and ultimately resigned. I felt like a failure fo ra long long time afterwards. No one can do everything.
Many of us have taken on classes and situations which we could not handle. I would nto have taken your job as the no windows andno recess part would have been signals to meto nto take the job. I have refused jobs and then been a waitress for another year when I interviewed for a no window job. We must listento our hearts, encourage others and communicate as much as possible with our knowledge and ideals. Thanks so much for sharing this.
Teachers need to hear from each other, especially during the most challenging times. So many teachers are facing unsustainable situations like you describe. My book Why Great Teachers Quit is full of stories like yours and with suggestions to change schools to help retain wonderful teachers like you! Thanks again. Tears and stress building up already. A good article, full of much wisdom…..
Wow, those who have posted here certainly have painted a negative picture of your students. I would offer the advice to sit in on some of those classes. Perhaps you may want to examine your knowledge, skills, and dispositions as critically as you have assessed those of your students.
Hi, I just want to say that we really cannot judge what situation any one person is in. Have you been hospitalized for stress related conditions? Is your health at risk? Is your family suffering because of the effort you must exercise to make a job as tough as that work? There are so many components to our lives. But there is no way to judge someone when what they are going through professionally, personally, physically, and emotionally is different from you.
You need to take your peace with your decisions, and realize that taking care of yourself is an important job. When your health suffers, what help will that be for the children? When everything else in your life suffers, where will that leave you? Everyone is different and that should be respected. January, you sound like you have never taught a day in your life. If so, you have no business judging others for a job you have never done.
If an educator is saying it was too much for them, it must have been. I have been teaching just over a year. Of course it didnt take long to realize that my vision of teaching was based on my fantasy. Well I made it by relying. Coffee and little sleep due to spending my evenings and weekends preparing 30 lessons plans 6for each day every week. But at the end of the year I thought, maybe. Was wrong and its not teaching, but rather the school thA was the problem, so I applied cord and received a transfer. So I started a new position at another school hoping that my feelings would change.
When I entered the school I felt a warmth and care for the students and thought yes, this is it. This year will be much better. I love my students, the school is doing its best to meet the new demands of the field while still being concerned with student welfare, but I am still overwhelmed. I do know if I have the energy to make it throw another year, let alone and entire career of being perpetually tired and overworked. I am so glad to have read your article. I have felt such guilt; but like you I realized that if I do not quit I will risk my health and sanity.
I have felt in the last two years that teaching has gotten a lot harder on the part of the teacher—the expectation for teachers is so high it borders on extremely rigid and impossible to reach. There is always a want, want, want, and a need, need, need from administrators, parents, and students; but there is no give to teachers—give us adequate classroom supplies, teaching supplies, a classroom with enough space for students, or classrooms with fewer students, and there are probably a few hundred other items to give a teacher.
Thank you Angela for your story in helping so many teachers who are in the same boat to come to a decision and know that we I am are not failures as teachers—cause no matter the decision made there will be one more healthier and saner person on this earth. I am grateful that this is my 30th and last year of teaching. My stress level and the hours spent on work have increased steadily over the past 6 years. I have taught three different grade levels in the past three years.
I have had to move my own classroom and start all over again creating lesson plans and materials. I feel guilty for the relief that I feel when I realize that I do not have to go through the new teacher evaluation program or the testing of the new Common Core. Children bring to school with them so many life problems that interfer with learning. I now deal with behaviors and issues that I did not have when I started teaching in I am still passionate about my profession, but I am so tired of being in the only profession where perfection is the standard. God bless all of the teachers who wrote comments to this article.
Can children from high poverty backgrounds excel in the classroom? Of course. But at some point schools have to draw the line between what is and is not feasible for 1 person to do, and, unfortunately, that line is often crossed or not drawn at all in urban schools due to a lack of resources. With less than a year and a half as a credentialed teacher, in a suburban setting no where near as tumultuous as hers, thoughts of quitting have become more prevalent of late. Will I act on them? I doubt it. I simply need to seek balance, which is nigh impossible given the near infinite number of tasks that require my attention to teach my three preps to or so students.
Saying such is easy; achieving it remains elusive even today. I quit after I was with a district for a year and a half. I worked with high school, sped, gang kids in two border towns. The week before break was like this; one student was watching videos about Columbine, another was dealing, and a third got in my face because he was moved to Fridays only. It was such a dangerous place to be so I left. I finally was hired and able to get back on my feet, but what a challenge.
Find a job before quitting the other would be my recommendation. I am so thankful to hear the stress of teaching is affecting other teachers and not just me. Since NCLB, education has deteriorated to chasing scores that are not attainable. Teachers at my schools work and collaborate and come up with wonderful ideas that are exhausting to implement with little or no resources. The steady flow of paper tasks and admin requirements increases weekly.
Oh and did I mention that our county has not had any pay increases for 5 years, none, nada, nothing……. Sorry to say but you really miss the whole point of my post….. I do not quit because I love the children and they deserve to be educated. LL, my comment was not directed at you…. I am quitting as of December 28th. I have been a Pre K teacher for 12 years in the same room.
I wished I would of done it in August after my last class moved on to Kindergarten but I tried it one more time but by Nov I knew I was done! Your post describes exactly what I felt last year as a nineteen year veteran. Fortunately, I chose to stay and fight the battles each day, mainly because my own son was in one of my classes. To all new teachers, hang in there! It is the toughest job ever, but it is so crucial that children have quality teachers. I was successful in taking care of myself. The teachers, students, admin, and parents were a nightmare.
The ONE thing that kept me sane was lunch time. During lunch I would go to the Discovery channel website and watch a few minutes of Deadliest Catch. You will not be the perfect match for every school. Search until you find the right one. Then, settle in for the long haul. Thank you for providing insight to what several of us educators face. Thank you!
I completely understand and agree with everything you wrote in the article. I managed to hold everything together until the day after school was out in Then, I had a mental breakdown, or breakthrough, and committed myself to the mental hospital where I stayed a week. My mental and physical health suffered from all the daily stress of teaching. I retired early after teaching for 20 years. Even the thought of being around children, especially children with behavior problems who are disrespectful, makes me ill. I loved teaching children, but the stress of achievement scores, a rigorous curriculum, and having no time for myself or family destroyed my love for children and teaching.
Thanks for sharing, Nelda. I know I did not as little as three years ago. Now, a year and a half into my new career, they weigh heavily on me along with the challenges of being a new teacher with three preps algebra intervention, algebra 1, AP Calc AB developing new curriculum for all three Common Core based for one and completing a second year of BTSA in order to receive a clear credential.
It requires a team approach, much like all other professions and industries. If that were the case,it might lessen the frequency of situations like yours where the individual who gives their heart and souls ends up smitten in the end. So sad. My 2nd year of teaching I took at job at an inner city school as a 3rd grade teacher.
I was excited to have my own classroom. The students were terrible, the admin even worse, and the electrical problems at the school were horrid!! The breaking point was when I showed up barely a minute late to pick up the kids from Lunch. The admin was very racist towards the white teachers. I literally walked in maybe 5 seconds behind an African American teacher whom was also late to pick her kids up. The principal was chatting it up with her as she went in. She saw me and literally started yelling at me in front of my kids and in front of the cafeteria staff.
She also went off on a rare good students of mine for something petty. I decided then and there that it was the last straw. The next day, I went to the district office and said that they either let me out of my contract, or I press racial harrassment charges. It was late October when that occurred. I worked a randome retail job for a month, then I happened to find a full time 4th grade job at a local charter school. I stayed there for 2 years before moving on to a better job. I now have 2 kids. Back then, I was a newlywed with a very supportive hubby.
Thank you for the article Angela, and thanks to everyone for your thoughtful responses. I never want to stand in front of a classroom again. Conveniently, I was furloughed from my latest position instead of having to quit. I regularly have bodily fluids spewn at me and sometimes have to restrain adults from hitting or biting me. But this is better! And I was considered a really good teacher! Like most of you in your individual subjects, I wanted to turn students on to the joy of learning.
In my case it was music. I did not go into teaching to be a drill sergeant or to coerce people into learning. Wish me luck! After 6 years in a low-income school, I was done. The stress made me ill, I was so unhappy, and I was just miserable. I dreaded going to school every day. So I found a job fair — an international school job fair — and I got a job teaching overseas. As soon as the fair was over, I literally felt a weight lift off of my shoulders. Four months into my new job, I love teaching again.
The administration, the school, the classroom resources, the students — all of it. I know the pain that you went through in quitting in the middle of the year. I taught 6th-8th for many years but the stress level built up slowly kind of like the frog in the pot,anyway I had reached my breaking point.
But God stepped in and there was a 3rd grade opening in another town. Angela, It takes strength to recognize when you lack what it takes at a particular moment to do the job the way it needs to be done. Passing the baton is humbling and shows how much you put students first. I too had a similar experience. I was teaching 5th grade at a title one school in the city. I was asked to leave my comfy, safe 3rd grade classroom because my behavior management could be of help to the 5th grade students.
Although this was a compliment, I was unhappy about the change. I knew 5th grade was out of my comfort zone. I coached middle school soccer and knew the interests of this age of child. Needless to say I spent all of my time disciplining students and trying to keep the oogling eyes to a minimum.
My principal sat me down numerous times asking if I was okay and that I looked miserable. I was. I thought about giving up teaching, but I accepted a position in 2nd grade and fell back in love with teaching. I realized I was mot the best person for the job. Their next teacher gave them everything they needed. I bless her everyday!
I have been a teacher for 9 years, and I can no longer do it. I decided I would attempt to teach Kindergarten in an inner-city charter school, and it has been the biggest mistake I have made. Charter schools are not run like public schools and the work load is much heavier, yet the pay is much less. I have missed over a week of work due to stress and illness and have lost a significant amount of weight. I stand behind my decision of leaving and I know my health is way more important than any job, so too is my marriage.
One can only give so much of oneself before you are the one who actually loses. I too have been out of work for 3 weeks due to stress and being over worked. I will be turning in my resignation. The issue for me is not the students; however, it is the excessive paper work, meetings, and unfair demands put on us. Teachers take time away from their spouses and children in order to perform this job. I spent countless hours preparing lesson plans, prepping, and studying material for the next day of teaching. Most nights I stayed up until 2 am preparing for the next day.
I love teaching and children, but I love my husband and family way more. Please PRAY for me. I feel your pain Waving the Flag, I am considering rendering my letter on Dec. Nice to know I am not alone in feeling this way about inner city teaching. I love the kids but have been moved to five different schools in six years. Inconsistency and chaos often rule the day. I am exhausted and really miss my family. I work in a semi-isolated community 50 miles from the nearest town. I teach grades , but half my class is at a K level in reading and math. This year, he means well, but students should not be referred to the office, and cannot be suspended.
This is so sad, this is why Teachers get a bad rap! When pursing the teaching profession, people really should think about the worst situation possible and if they can handle it mentally, emotionally, physically, etc. More than likely those are the kids that needed you the most and just like you said, they have been left before so that is all they know. Knowing that and turning around and doing it to them is just atrocious. I urge everyone to do your homework before picking the teaching profession because ALL children need inspiring, strong, and caring teachers!
Veronica, I am just curious — are you a teacher? Have you ever been in a teaching situation such as the one described above? There needs to be more conversation about change, and bringing an awareness to the public as the realities of what our teachers are up against daily. Then there needs to be a plan to support them, and not just in word only.
I could go on. Veronica, I am a teacher who left the profession. Most of us thought long and hard about going into teaching and worked very hard to be the best teachers we could possible be, for the kids. But there was no way to prepare for what we have had to face. Teaching is one crisis situation after another, especially in the inner city.
What I had to do was to make a decision about the value of my own health. The decision to leave the teaching profession was extremely difficult. My heart was in it, but it was making me emotionally and physically ill. I agree with Blithe. I do though have to draw the line when the time I take to do all the obligations and work required takes away from my family, and my personal health spiritual and physical. Being a teacher today is becoming more and more difficult.
Thank you Blithe for your insight. I have to tell those of you struggling with the decision to leave, I was so nervous to provide my principal with my letter of resignation, but am now so glad I did. I am ready to move forward. I will continue with the field of education, but in the college sector.
I am not sure if I will return to the elementary school classroom, as I no longer believe in the changes that are being made constantly. Teachers are now treated like unworthy slaves, and that breaks my heart. If my heart and soul are not in it, it is not fair to all of those souls who need someone whose is. My next task is to write a book on my experiences to hopefully shed light to those who have no true idea what is going on behind the closed door. Waving the Flag, I salute your courage. Curious as to what your letter said and how it was received.
Still looking for another job first. So happy for you. Good luck in your new endeavors. Read this: so true! I was a teacher for 7 years. Never in my life did I think I would do something so risky as quitting my teaching job mid-year. But a series of events led me to this difficult decision. My body crashed. The stress and pressure that I used to handle with ease was manifesting itself in a great depression that left me feeling guilty. I had no gusto. My husband a daughter suffered because of it. It was a struggle, but I made the difficult decision to leave the profession behind me.
I feel that I may have let the kids down but I also know that fourth graders are resilient and in 10 years this will be a blip on their radar. My ultimate complaint about the job is the relentless pile of duties and paperwork given to teachers with no regard for the number of hours in the day.
It became so thankless for me that I had to quit for my own health. Were my first 6 years of teaching enjoyable? But it seems like this year contained the over-scheduling of meetings, half-hearted professional development agendas, over-bearing parents, and ever difficult process for getting struggling students help that was just enough for me to resign. Believe me when I say I am not the type of person to do such a thing. But I would hope that other people reading this post who have maybe done searches about getting out of the teaching profession would take solice in my story.
If you had a friend who was an accountant and they were unhappy with their job would you sink so low as to judge them for needing a change? I am curious as to what state you teach in. I am in the same boat. I just got back from break and I am ready to resign. I am trying to stick it out and find another job first. If you can stick it out, do. It makes the most sense financially, right? I live in Oregon.
I just know that we get one life and I was not going to do this til retirement so I made the change. Sarah, I hear what you are saying!! I keep hanging in there hoping for a change or a new job offering but the stress is taking its toll. State tests came back very low last week so now there is even more pressure added. Just praying my way through this. I admire your courage and can only imagine how much lighter you feel.
One called me to give me the news on the first day after Christmas break. She said they were being harassed and going to start their own school. At first, I was supportive. I understand how stressful teaching in our current environment is. Later, after further investigation, I changed my mind. I found many details were distorted based on reports by fellow teachers, parents and the children.
The deciding factor for me was the testimony corroborated by my child and other children in the class that the children saw both teachers that Tuesday. The child that told me this was one of the two of the sixteen students that my daughter 11 years young and innocent had reported were most devastated by the teachers leaving. I have lost all respect for these two teachers. I am a physician and am bound by law not to mention ethics not to abandon my patients. I have to put my patients needs above my own. There are now 16 souls facing abandonment issues that will scar them for a lifetime.
I have lost respect for these teachers that did not at least say good bye to their students. I hope they never are in the position to hurt other children. Suzanne, That sounds like a terrible experience for the students, parents and remainder of the school staff. I agree that what you described was very unprofessional.
And I feel resolve with the way I said goodbye to my students. Granted, this is unique to me and many women manage this and more with grace. I simply had to make a life change. I am now working through the guilt of leaving something I once loved but ultimately put my own health above the profession. That I cannot apologize for.
I am sorry that the students at your school are feeling abandoned…they have every right to feel that way. But I always remind myself that children are resilient. I sincerely hope the situation at your school changes for the better! Sarah, I would not have had a problem if the teachers had explained and said good bye. Nothing we parents and other teachers say seems to help them. I am glad you said good bye. I trusted these teachers with my children.
I will not do it again with these particular ladies who are starting their own school. This does not apply to you or any of the other teachers who leave without hurting the children. And about children being resilient. They are not as resilient as you think. You are not the first adult who has mentioned this. I was surprised at first, but I later realized not everyone is as aware of the effects of childhood trauma as I am..
I am a child and adolescent psychiatrist by training. However, I now see adults and geriatrics. Abandonment scars cause problems that last into adulthood. That is why divorce is so harmful to children. It is as though these children have lost someone through death. A few have asked if this happened because they were bad. Mine just keeps it inside. Some of the parents have even suggested grief counseling. This incident affected many people. I made sure to say good-bye, not only to my students, but also to my parents, and my colleagues.
I also made gift bags for all of the kids with special messages inside. I also keep in touch with the new teacher who took my position God bless her. My health is now much better and I have had several people tell me how much better I sound when I talk to them. I feel like I have gained my life back, emotionally, spiritually, and physically.
I was doing a disservice to those students by staying any longer. I was absolutely miserable. I was angry. Best of luck to those of you who are trying to decide what to do. Most importantly, do what is best for you and your family. It is not worth losing a marriage over, not having any energy or time to take care of your own children, and allowing your health to deteriorate like mine did.
There is light at the end of the tunnel, I promise you. Even though there are hardly any behavior issues, I still feel burnt out. I would love some ideas for a former teacher. Most of us anticipated the low wages but the blatant disrespect is completely unexpected and difficult to overlook. Lisa, I do not hink you or any of the teachers on this page have mistreated children like our 2 teachers did.
Money and respect have nothing to do with mistreating children. I am saying get out without hurting the children in your care. My post had nothing to do with the people here.
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I was just needing to vent about the treatment of our 16 children. Howver, regarding the pay issue not all physicians are wealthy and the pay is much worse than it used to be. I have k student loan debt my husband had 75k and has never been able to work at ant more tha a minimum wage job because of health issues- nursing not physician. I usually make about 80 k, but have made about 70k. Some teachers make more than I do administrators , so for the years of my life and the hell I went through, the difference is not that much.
That being said, teachers do not get paid enough. My GGM always tod me there were 3 noble professions, preacher, teacher and physician. I started out at 11 wanting to be a missionary. I changed to planning to get a Ph. So, at 19, I reexamined my life and at 33 graduated from med school. I think police and firemen are under paid as well.
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I agree with the respect issues, though. Many do not deserve that respect. I do think teachers also get more respect from the community, parents and kids than most other people. Money and respect should have nothing to do with not mistreating children. Teacher, like doctors and clergy, in a position of authority. The potential for abuse is huge. Anyone who goes into these endeavors just for money and respect should find another profession.
And I am disheartened that the career I loved has so changed that the requirements and expectations are not much different than classroom teaching. I wanted library to be a respite from the day to day tasks of the classroom, as modeled by my mentor. This is only one of many issues in public ed that are sad for me. I loved my school. I spent eight years at that middle school. They hired me straight out of college. Looking back on it now, I feel like my co-workers watched me grow up. They helped raise me. I always said that when I became a mean teacher, I would leave. And I had become a mean teacher.
I was teaching an elective that the kids did not get to pick — Creative Writing. My classes were huge 35 and up and I was also stuck in a windowless room, in the back of the school. There was very little disciplinary support from the front office, and very few rules I was allowed to actually enforce with any authority. I was charged with making all my own curriculum but not given any direction, then I got slammed by admin for not being on pace with a non-existing learning schedule. I had one functioning computer for the students to use while the other elective in my grade level had a full production graphics design studio.
Oh, did I mention the 35 thirteen year olds in the room? I know this. I love children. I love learning and I am constantly searching for new ways to reach my students. I constantly offer and give help to others. I practically made a career of scratching backs. During this time, I was serving as the yearbook advisor. I loved those kids. My yearbook kids were hard-working, sweet, and dependable. Additionally, I was working part-time for a virtual school as academic integrity support.
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It really hurts. So, when my virtual school offered me a full-time teaching job, at the same salary as all three of my jobs, and the opportunity to work from home, I was at once overjoyed and immediately conflicted. Would it get better next year? Could I leave my kids? Could I leave my friends?
Could I leave my school? I agonized for weeks, but when the time came to make a decision, I went with the virtual school. I get to spend one-on-one time with my students for however long they need me. Is is perfect? But was it the right decision for me? As teachers, we are here to serve the needs of others. My students treated me like a princess during my last week, and their loving acts were not lost on me.
I chose to interpret his actions as a reaction to being hurt, and not really meant to hurt me. It was disappointing, but thankfully, my co-workers cheered me off into my new job and showered me with hugs. I did what was the right thing for me, and I know it was best for my students. They needed who I used to be. Creative Writing, forced elective, no curriculum, students, serious discipline issues.
Attitudes and Beliefs
I work at the school until and then get up between in the morning to try to plan. My heart pounds and I am nauseated and unable to eat, I feel so stressed about this class. The passion, patience and tolerance are gone. Point blank. Ditto to everything read in the above posts. Many management jobs only require a degree,,,not specific to the job…just so you can prove you can organize and manage people…who better than a teacher? There have times over the years that I have wondered how I was going to get through the next month, week, day, or even hour.
Teaching is a tough profession. If you are a title 1 school, you must deal with issues related to poverty and violence. If you work at a middle class school, you must deal with individuals that feel teachers are beneath them. There is no perfect place to teach, nor is there a perfect class, but what gets me through the day is the love that I have for each of my students. Today, members of the district visited our classrooms. They were not happy with my grade level. Each of us were doing what was expected of us, but not what the district wanted to see.
My principal wants us to conduct small reading groups. How do you conduct small reading groups if the other students are doing mindless worksheets? The disconnect between what districts, principals, parents, and students wants makes teaching very difficult. How do I satisfy everyone? I was doing what my students needed at the time. As a 25 year veteran teacher, I have seen it all. I have gone through a half dozen programs and adoptions. Everyone thinks he knows what the kids need. Just like this group of District People, everyone thinks they have the perfect answers.
Ironically, no one does. No class is ever the same from year to the next. No student is ever the same from year to year and no school is exactly alike. One year, I will have a good year, and the next year, I will be wringing my hands all year. I have seen 7 superintendents come and go, worked with 12 principals, taught from 6 different Language Arts series, and have seen the pendulum swing back and forth so many times that I feel dizzy from all the changes.
I have been a gifted teacher to some and a pariah to others. Some parents have loved me and others have hated me. But… all in all, I have taught children to the best of my ability and loved them all with all my heart. I am not been a perfect teacher, but I have given my all. Of the plus students that I have taught, they know one thing — that I loved them and I did my best. My princpal has written me up for submitting late assessment data and lesson plans … poor classroom management bc i wasnt able 2 handle a few students misbehavior on my own.
I had to develop a teacher improvement plan and implement it now which is causing me more stress bc my principal made it clear I should take leave. My husband says other teachers teach and have time for their family. I want to quit but I feel guilty leaving the students they all are very nice and well behaved except 4 several students behavior makes it difficult to teach.
I feel so bad that I have used up all my sick days and feel uncomfortable saying I needed a mental health day. I so understand and relate to this article and many of the teachers who have posted. I taught public school for 4 years. My children were not being challenged at all so for 4 years I homeschooled. That was the best thing I ever did for my family. When they reached the ages beyond my teaching credentials I placed them in a private school where I also picked up a job for 2 years. Having a sexually abusive background, the perpetrator began showing up at my work my 3rd year of teaching.
He was good friends with my principal. I approached my principal and asked if he knew what the perpetrator had done. Not so.